Being here, going there

wishing that it would all stop

seeing no pain

feeling no pain

i see tears spill

from faces i dont know

looking from one person to the next

calling out to them all

with no reply back

The scenery around me is a church

seeing family and friends lined up near a coffin

seeing friends crying in corners

wondering what is going on.

i see you holding nothing back

i feel no sadness

i fee nothing

walking towards the coffin

invisible to everyone

looking down, i see her

the girl i always saw

the girl i know

the girl who chose death

i turn away crying

looking for help

looking for a reason

what happened?

why does she look like me?

my twin is crying near our mom.

is that me?

i wake up to reality, hoping it was just a dream.