I'm dying today....

emotional wounds bleeding bright red blood

waiting for a salvation that will never come

 

I did the unthinkable

I had a taste - just a little taste

a friend - turned into a lover

for just one night

and now my head is spinning

I can't think

can't concentrate

I'm shaking

I cry out for help

but no one hears me

no one can rescue me from my inevitable fate

 

You put it on me good

like no one has before

licking my ear

sucking my neck

sliding your hands in places

making me so wet

 

I slide my fingers through your hair

I'm mesmerized

winding with my fingers

pulling ever so gently

showing you ever so slightly

this fire that burns inside

 

We're in a crowded place

surrounded by people

all around

yet you slide your fingers

where they shouldn't be

in such a crowded place

you have me moaning

hoping no one hears

but not really caring

cuz the only thing I feel

is your lips on my neck my mouth, my ears

licking me from behind

sliding your hands under my dress

wanting more

not caring who is watching

I let out a sigh

I start to moan

 

 

I tried to resist

the more I resisted

the more you pulled

the more I resisted

the MORE you PULLED

until I couldn't resist you anymore

 

You eyes command me

Your masculinity demands me

I gave in to you

willingly, eagerly

wanting you so bad

so young

so tantalizing

so delicious

 

Your lips are on mine

your wet tongue in my mouth

locked in a sensual kiss

you have broken down all my defenses

what walls I had - you smashed to pieces

 

I have nothing left

I am yours

completely

no more resisting

I lost that battle

I fought it well

but down I went

you ripped me apart like fresh meat

I cry out in defeat

Begging for mercy

yet you give me none

Pain wracks my body

consuming me like fire

my wounds flow like a river

blood pouring on the battlefield

 

You conquered me

you gave me mortal wounds

and now today

I'm bleeding

I'm dying

left defenseless

left with nothing

 

What have we done dear friend

What have we done

We crossed lines

We can't go back

So much unknown

Too much confusion

Did we sacrifice a friendship

for the sake of lust?

 

Cuz now dear friend

I ask for the final blow

Drive that stake into my heart

Strike the mallet hard

make death come swiftly

put this lost soul out of it's misery

cuz I can't take this shit no more!