All i can do is sit here

i sit in my room trying to change myself

i have no reason to keep you here

i feel the loneliness seeping into my heart

i have the feeling of acceptance but,

sitting here i think

remembering our bickering

remembering summer with my friends

remembering all those practices

remembering our talks

thinking of family and friends

loving them all

missing them all

thinking of them every moment.

that moment changed as i looked around me.

i see my childhood pictures

i see my family pictures

i feel no warmth

i feel no feelings but one

i touch my necklace and cry

i smell the detergent on everything lingering

i hear my music calling to me

i hear no one anywhere

i just feel one emotion

something i cant control

something i dread

something you used to get rid of

Now, i leave you alone

and feel it more than ever.

Loneliness